I found this blog post in my old phone notes this is something that has been going around in my head for a while,over thr past few months &I feel like I need to write about it.
thanks to the internet I've spoken & gotten to know some amazing individuals. Many of whom have similar diffuculties to me or who go through/have been through a hell of alot more than me,all teenagers or young adults who have inspired me to want to write something in honour of how much they've inspired me.
All of these people have got similar experiences to me&all of a similar age I've spoken to a quite a few people from everything from being abandoned by friends,school, hospitals to sleeping all day,not getting out or being able to have a normal or proper life.
Your teenage years are supossed to be some of the best years of your life when you can go out&be free, if you can't you can very isolated,eveything gets questioned especially why you should be the one stuck in doors when you see everyone else doing things you could only dream of or might not ever a chance to do. People stop caring or coming to see you or showing any sign of caring at all,you feel completly forgotten which not only makes you feel like a boring person but it makes you wonder why people who you would do anything for won't do the same for you.
I've spent alot of time over the past few years doubting myself over the past as eveything I seem to do goes wrong so whenever something good does come along I spend alot of time worrying that it will or that my health will stop me from doing it. I've also spent alot of the past few years looking back to even to when I was a child & realizing that even then although I never really thought about it at the time I obviously thought it was unfair but fogot about it as I was a very happy kid & spent most of the time laughing (as I do now)
But over the past few years started to wonder why people never chose me for anything,why was I the one who didn't get picked for anything or have the opportunities like my peers did? Why was that fair? Of course it all comes down to being ill. Sick people don't get the same opportunities as everyone else,which in my opinion is wrong. I also realized that even as I kid I faced discrimimintion for this eveyone deserves the same chances no matter who they are or where they come from. What is very intresting is that I know that if I went and spent a few months with a group of kids (toddlers or young kids) they wouldn't care who I was or that I had problems they'd love me anyway so what changes when we get older? What happens to us that makes us hate ceartian people? Or discriminate against them? I'm not saying this is all people but it is most of them
Everyone should be equal you get activists for womans rights or gay rights,animal rights but there's not alot of activists for sick peoples rights,if your an activist for sick people rights they are probably someone caring for a sick person or you are one.
We don't go out & have protests because were to ill to do that, if we did it probably be about an hour until we all felt to tierd and would have to go home . Also who's gonna listen to us? Hardly anyone have to stick together no matter what.
So to all my chronically ill friends firstly I'm so sorry this is the way we had to find eachother, your strenght & bravery inspires me daily to all the older people thank you for showing me that it will get better & to all the younger ones I hope I can show you that exact same thing & make sure that you know that your'e not alone. I'm promising you all that I'm gonna try & make this more fair for all of us,I love you all & If you ever need me I'll try my hardest to make you feel betterđź’“
