Grades don't define you

Days like this always seem to hard for me you know results days&proms ans whatever watching people be normal & be normal teenagers,for me its the thought that she school didn't believe that I could achieve anything despite being ill & the fact that everyone deserves to have the same chances no matter who they are I know I wrote a bog blog post on all this the other day

 but It makes me really angry which is why I'm more determined than ever to start up my own school for sick kids, also I've realized over the past few years there's more important  than being graded. I believe all this has made me a better person this is gonna sound creepy but I've had the chance to watch people

when your out & can't walk around you notice more you notice children playing the noises around you & hear peoples conversations about their days,kids,friends or lives & sometimes you hear there funny storys & for a few seconds you feel like you know them. I've also had the chance to find out about  other peoples ways of life people who have it worse off then me & people who are struggling just as much as I am.

It's given my life more than a meaning,one of my favourite Harry Potter quotes is "There's more important things than being clever like friendship and Bravery" I can't remember what Harry Potter it's from only that Hermione says it to Ron at some point. I believe this to be true because you can be smart,have a posh house well paid job  but be a horrible person who has no friends or family around as long as you're a good person ot dosnet matter what you end up doing because you'll always have alot of friends& family around you supporting you through wherever life takes you.


Over the past few years I've been in alpt of & fandoms and I've been a very loyal person in these fandoms,I've learnt alot from that & found joy in simple things like editing &I think I've become alot better at it over the years especially from when I started,grades don't define who you are and it doesn't  matter what age you do stuff or in what order another

1 of my favourite quotes is "you're never to old to dream a new dream". This is also true people do things at all ages so just because eveyone else is doing something you shouldn't feel bad about the fact you're not it dosnet mean you cant or won't do it it just means It's gonna take a little longer which will make it even sweeter when you achieve it.

Also as it took longer you have every right to celebrate even harder than eveyone else. I've learnt that just because some people never gave me a chance or believed in me it doesn't mean I shouldn't believe in me &
 alot of people do believe in me, no matter what anyone tells you
grades don't define you or who you are.

My school life & what I plan to change about for sick people

 I was watching lose women earlier cuz Pop put it on to watch the chaser and his wife & they had a story on about 2 mums who were rasing money for a disabled school and 1 of the things 1 of them said was that at a normal school her & ger family were constantly being told what he would never be able to do but at this disabled school they tailored what they taught to the  needs and had each goal as a small one that they could manage. I know its a completely different story but what she said

 reminded me of my school life especially towards the end teachers would put me in rooms alone & make me do tests that I clearly couldn't do,then when they couldn't handle me because they couldn't be bothered to try and help they just kicked me out. I've got alot of self confidence issues along with the fear that people don't want me around anymore  which I'm pretty sure are both mostly related to school and

 how they treated me,it would have been easy for them to come up with some sort of programme that gave me all I needed and taught me eveything I needed to know in a way where I could cope. I'm forever seeing adverts or appeals to help African kids get an education and one of the things they always say is that eveyone deserves an education and that's completely right so why is it right for them to treat me like that? It's not,

I feel really strongly that no matter who you are you deserve to be taught in a way that's tailored for you just like I do with myself now I can finally learn again you shouldn't take the power of an education away from anyone I might not be the smartest person but I still have passions& I still want to do well at whatever I end up doing & now I can read & write again no-one can stop me.

This year I learnt that I'm not alone in my battle with school
I speak to alot of chronically ill people who have or have had problems with schools faling to understand what its like to be sick but want to learn no matter how much yoy try ti tell these people they just don't get it,I sat in a room full of kids this year about 200

 All like me & I can't understand that just because someones diffrent or has different needs why should that stop them from having all the opportunities a normal kid does? I never got picked for anything at school, developed a passion for acting in year 6 (even tho I was incredibly shy) no-one gave me the opportunity to come out of my shell at the end of school play someone got ill & they had to pick another person to play her part I knew I knew all the lines this person had and as I only had 2 lines so I was excited becuase for some reason I thought i'd get picked yet because I was a sickly kid I wasn't.

I'm gonna wrap this up now cuz it's a way to long & I'm not sure it makes sense but my point is no-one should be able to treat you like you don't matter no-one should be able to take your education,passions or love for life away from you no-one should be able to tell you what you can and can't do I don't want anyone in the future having to sit down and write something like this I want people to know that others are going through or have been through the same.

Whatever I wanted before I don't want do much anymore but I want to set up a school for chronically ill kids  (or anyone who's ill with whatever it might be) the school system sucks so we won't stick to it & you only have to work an hour a day or whatever you can do Friday there's no school or school trips&Thursday is therapy/self care day because lifes hard & you need a break but you also need company (this includes art therapy,and any other therapy that might be needed and just doing whatever you want for however long you want to stay for) I also plan ro have a sleep/rest room incase eveything gets to much oh and lots if cake because cake makes eveything better