My Insperations

Everyone inspires me well I try to find something inspiring in every person I meet, everyone has a story & I’m lucky enough to know so many people with so many interesting story’s.

My biggest inspirations come from people who no matter who they are what they have been through or where they come from. People who do things regardless of age or what they know they cant do or face daily challenges yet they still have the guts to help others & make a difference to the world.

I thought this would be a interesting topic to write about as I have so many amazing friends & idols so here goes, I’m going to start off with fandom related ones then move on to others.

One of my biggest inspirations right now is Jennifer Morrison, Jen doesn’t only seem the nicest person to meet she’s always trying to help a cause somewhere, she also battled skin caner so for someone going through a illness its really inspiring to see how much she has done and she made me realize that it doesn’t matter how old you are  to what you have done in your life compared to everyone around you.

I cant mention Jenifer without mentioning the rest of the once cast, they’ve all inspired me in 1 way or another, I think its really important to have idols who are older than you because they have experienced things you haven’t.

Rose Reynolds has taught me not to be so serious and to stop caring what people think, Colin O’donughue makes me believe that there is good in the world. Both Lana Parrilla and Rebecca Mader have taught me the beauty of friendship. Emma Booth has made realize how positive thinking really does work. Emilie De Ravin has taught me to enjoy everything around me.

Josh Dallas and Ginnifer Goodwin have taught me that true love really does exist but

most importantly Alison Fernandez has taught that age isn’t a barrier, to throw yourself into anything that interests you. This is the most important one as she’s so young.

Talking of young people the amount of young teenage actress’s' are incredibly fearless these people will stand up for anything obviously these girls have got confidence or they couldn't do what they do but it's made me think about me at that age I had no clue about anything going on the world let alone to actually speak up about it, I have lived in bubbles my entire life I’m not exactly sure why but I do know that until lately I had no clue about anything (I still don’t about most things)

I only started living in the real world last year, If I’m honest I’m no best at sticking up for myself or stating my opinions mostly because people disagree then start arguments. I’ve got enough going on without all that so I don’t bother.

To me for someone to be able to have the guts to say no this is wrong to not be afraid of making it right & to be able to face up to the worlds problems being so free & open about it no matter how big or small the problem is amazes me especially so young.

These girls have more bottle than grown men & I don't know if its just based on what they feel is right or if its something else that’s made them this way, its probably just down to confidence.

The main people I’m talking about here are the ANNE (Anne with a E) main girls,Rowan Blanchard, Isabel Cliffton,Isabel Allen, Polly Allen,Kia Pegg ,Annabelle Davis, Mia MBruce, Emily Burnett and I’m sure there are more but I’m terrible with names so I cant think right now.



Another 2 who are older but I feel I should mention are Genevieve Angelson and Emma Watson, I found Genevieve’s instagram after watching Good Girls revolt her IG is filled with positive inspirational quotes, this makes me really happy whenever I seen her posts but she’s also a activist and its really inspiring to see all the things she gets up to.

As for Emma she’s also a massive activist, she writes some amazing speeches but is also  able to give really powerful deliveries of them. Emma is also someone who not only fights for what’s right but is also a really hard worker which I look up a lot to alot as I feel I also am.

One of my recent inspirations is Lisa Swallow a author who also suffered ME when she was younger, the main reason for this is because right now most of the time I don’t feel like I will ever achieve anything or do anything at all. So its amazing to see someone achieving their dreams. Im also a massive writer so this makes me really happy, its obvious to see she sometimes struggles but is obviously  able to have some sort of normal life as well.

I can’t mention inspiration’s without mentioning Lewis Hine, Lewis has been through so much  but still finds the time to help others despite his daily challenges its also really good to see people sharing their stories and spreading awareness for their disabilities.  I also cant mention Lewis without mentioning all the incredible people I follow online who have accounts for their illness’s. These people inspire me everyday in so many ways and any parents doing the same thing including my mother.

There are probably a lot more people I could mention in  this but I also think I also covered a lot of what I could say here in my Fandom blog, there isn’t really I need for this blog I just thought it would be fun to think and then write about.

How Fandoms have helped me during recovery

For someone who spends most of her time at home I pride myself on not over watching television, as I think most people if they found themselves in my situation would watch alot more films and T.V. I’m also sure that some people without chronic illness or any illness watch more stuff than me on a daily basis, I hate resting in my opinion its the devil in disguise telling me I cant do anything useful or anything at all when I so desperately want to do something but T.V,films & fandoms have helped me immensely with distraction & weirdly make me feel useful, films & books have the power to take you somewhere else, the power to make you believe in the in the unbelievable. For someone who lives a lot of her life in pain being taken to another world even only for half a hour is even more powerful to be able to escape reality for a bit. Audiobooks gave me back my imagination because I’ve been able to play stories out in my head even when I cant read so it gets my brain working even on days when I cant do much.

Being able to make friends with people all over the world who like the same T.V shows and films as me has also been a great distraction having people to get excited about is always fun even being in small ransoms and doing it alone is also great fun.  Being housebound means you don’t get a lot, you have little fun see the same people day in day out to be able to have excitement over something even something small like a TV show getting picked up or getting another season or films getting released  becomes a massive deal. My faverouite thing to do right now is to try to watch films before there sequels come out, read or listen to books before watching their films. Its given me a massive reading/listening list but that excites me more than anything.

 I got to the point of not being able to write but I found I could make art.

I started with actual posters then moved on to try to create my own posters which gave me a lot of joy as well as also giving me something to do, its also something I would like to take further if I ever get the chance. I’ve also done quite a lot of lyric video editing again not only giving me something to do but I really enjoy doing it. I’m also hoping to take that further,Iv’e done all this alone and off my own back experimenting with different things to see  what works. I know what works now but its very simple so I would like to make it more complicated and make them more  interesting as some of them are quite boring to watch so with my next ones I plan to do more experimenting and see if I can better myself in any way.

it’s not just the films & T.V its the people in them or who work on them, I have tons of idols all for different reasons, the  internet gives you power to watch interviews & find out things that you wouldn’t have been able to do years ago.

Watching Celebrities live videos or youtube videos allows you to get to know them & it also gives you the power to be able to have your art noticed by the people playing your favourite characters 

I did Dressember in December, one of my posts was a picture of me playing tennis the caption being “ dressember day 11 this is probably 1 of the best dressember photos I have, I suffer from chronic fatigue syndrome  which leaves me wheelchair bound most of the time so being able to play bat & ball was a really big deal for me” I didn’t want to make it to long because I felt like I didn’t really need to and no one really wants to read a massive assay on my life whilst scrolling through IG.

My post was then commented on by 1 of the organisers and re posted on the Dressember  their caption on the repost was “Out inspiration today comes from @blue.ayed.swan_ for how she is using the dressember style challenge to prove to herself that you can do anything in a dress” this will always stick out to me because I was really scared of posting about my illness on my fan account I’m not sure why probably mostly because its a fan account but this made me feel so much better about myself just the fact that people who didn’t even know me seemed to partly understand me & how hard I was trying.

Part of my story was also posted on the Swan princess website in on of there blogs talking about all the art and lyric videos I was making, this gave me a lot of confidence that I didn’t have before ,encouraged me to keep going and gave me a sense of pride that I really didn’t have before. I struggle with confidence a great deal but this really did boost me up

When anyone comments on any of my edits it gives me such a boost, just to feel people are enjoying them means the world especially when they have taken a really long time to make.

I’m completely obsessed with fairytales/fantasy stories which hasn’t helped a great deal in one way but in another its been such a blessing. I began to watch Once upon a time about a year and a half ago, its made me laugh & cry so much but given me so much hope for my own life. Especially the character of Emma, Emma lives half her life alone with hardly anyone around her Henry finds her then brings her to Storybrooke where she finds her family but also realizes she’s a hero which is something she struggles to except. At the start of the show Emma has no confidence at all but she starts to believe in herself  by the end of series 6 she’s married pregnant and she knows who she is and has finally stopped being scared of it. Another once character who is one of my favourite’s is Regina/the evil queen . Regina finds a way to except and make up for her past mistakes

I mostly watch Children’s T.V including Hetty Feather, The worst Witch, the dumping ground and various others when they happen to be on being ill has made me more emotional as a person I also now get stressed a lot more easily so the only half dramatic shows I can watch are ones made for children as I can cope with the drama elements and they don’t effect me to much if at all. I also love watching anything with Dominic Littlewood that man has been through this journey with me yet we haven’t ever met his shows have kept me sane and weirdly given me a education even if its not the curriculum. Its still been learning. At Christmas I watched a lot of cooking shows or factory shows showing you how things are made which I also really loved. I also watched every series of Miranda which I really enjoyed.

Lately I’ve been trying to watch all the old classic Disney films, I watched a documentary on Walt Disney and it was interesting hearing about all the old stuff that I don’t really remember because I watched them so young, this makes resting (the thing I hate most) interesting. Most of them are so clever to their time  especially Mary Poppins with the animation within the real images, it wasn’t the greatest animation but for that time it was pretty amazing.

I spend hours listening to T.V and film sountracks,they make me so happy and just music in general I tend to listen to the same things over and over but I really love 5SOS and they make me laugh so much which makes me forget everything that’s going on.

Recovery & food

This seems like a really stupid thing to making a blog post on but if you know me well enough you will know about my love for food.

I can't get out or walk around alot,I will admit I eat alot especially when I'm not feeling well or feeling upset anyway the year before last I got diagnosed as pre diabetic it scared everyone including me unfortunately this was also just before Christmas so all the Christmas chocolate was on the shelves I honestly thought my life was over junk food was one of my only comforts on bad days (it sounds dumb but it was true)

It also made me feel like I was fat, I am compared to most people but that's not from choice that's from not being able to exercise & the steroids I take daily making me look puffy (especially in the face) but that doesn’t help when you are already not that confident & I'd never really thought about it before then. I know it now but I don't really care that much as I am doing everything I can possibly do & I know I can't do anymore than I already am.

I tried eating healthy & if I'm honest I didn't think my diet was that awful even though it probably was at the time.
Salads to me sounded very boring to me a salad is just cucumber tomatoes & lettuce but you can make them interesting & I do eat quite alot of salad & fruit now or at least I try to some days it just does not  happen.

I struggle most with sugar as I'm always so exhausted & sugar is a quick fix for my problem to be honest I think that's how I ended up with the pre diabetes, that along with not being able to move around much or get out.

I can't get most of my tablets because they are all replacing things I don't have in my body but I can get off my diabetic medication which I plan to do although it's gonna take alot of perseverance as I know I still don't eat the best sometimes but I have learnt that nothing is going to make a gigantically bad impact in small amounts & that I probably small doses of bad stuff anyway so I don’t worry a much as I used to but its been a big part of my life the past year or so. 

How social media has helped with my recovery

I have a lot of online friends, I have more online friends than I have friends that I could meet up with on a daily, weekly or monthly basis as most of my internet friends live in different countries. I really want to meet them at some point but at this current time it is pretty impossible. I also have internet friends who do live more locally but again I cant really travel, any travelling of any sort would have to be well thought out with tons of preparation even if it was only a few hours away.

Although I may never get to meet some of these friends or may spend little time with them I feel very lucky to have them in my life & to be able to share my experiences with them as most of them also suffer chronic illnesses or health conditions. People always tell you not to talk to strangers online because they could be creeps, this is true  you do need to be extremely careful but for someone  who can’t get out being able to talk to people even if you cant see them makes a huge positive impact.

Social media has given me a platform where I don’t feel so alone, I can see others going through the same as me & it makes me feel a lot less isolated I got to a point where I felt like none at all understood me and that no one felt the same so I created a chronic illness instagram account this has really helped me except that I am ill and that it doesn’t have to be all bad.

Seeing others posts allows me to see what has worked for them but also allows me to give advice to others as well as receiving it, this makes me feel sort of useful, I’m also currently trying to get involved in as many chronic illness projects as I can,Ive just finished writing a piece for a book a chronic illness website is putting together. This website isn’t finished yet but seeing it all come together really excites me, there plan is to create online groups within the website that you can join, I’m not currently really apart of anything because I can hardly get out but this is going to give me a chance to talk to more people, make more friends, feel even less isolated and hopefully work with some of these people on projects or listen to their stories making me able to write stories about chronic illness that are more accurate to real life.

Support groups/ websites are really helpful and useful to a lot of people for many reasons but I do really feel that without them mentally I would definitely be in much worse place.   

Having some sort of idea of these peoples stories gives me more hope for my own,Ive said it before but at some point I would love to write other peoples stories either as real stories or use them in fictional ones. It’s made me be more open about my struggles and less scared of them.

I would also like to shout out all my fandom friends who have also been so sweet and supportive and seem to understand me when I explain what is going on in my life. All the people who have messaged me or commented on things when I’m sharing my struggles or achievements and for constantly being there but also for being friends that the reason we are friends isn’t because of illness but because we share the same interests, being able to have something else to focus on & talk about works great as a distraction so having this is really good for me,I don’t open up to a lot of people especially if they aren’t facing the same or similar things but you guys have been really good to me you’re family.

If any of my online friends are reading this weather you be from a chronic illness page or a fandom friend first off I love you more than you could ever know, thank you for cheering me on from afar, thank you for being some of the only people who ask after me and for being their. I hope if we haven’t met that one day we do get to meet. I also hope that if we have met that we get to spend more time together one day, probably when I’m more awake so I don’t fall asleep in your presence. I hope I have been able to lift you up as much as you have me, if I haven’t I hope one day I do.

Emotions during reccovery

I didn’t plan anything like this going into this series but the other day I ended up crying my eyes out when everyone’s social media posts just got to much.

I’ve always been a very emotional person but I’ve never been the best at letting out properly I think that’s why I try & write alot because I get so upset & mad writing clears my mind.

But I'm also very black & white even I'll admit that to me what’s right is right & what’s wrong is wrong there’s hardly any in between.

Anything that hurts another person in any way is obviously wrong & I feel very strongly about that I try to understand other peoples views & mostly I can but I also feel other peoples pain very deeply, I’m not saying I can completely feel how they do but I know I definitely feel peoples emotions alot deeper than most people do.

Also I know most people can watch the news & not think about stories hours days or even weeks later I really can't If anyone is reading this they are probably thinking what on earth is she on about & what does this have to do with recovering.

Well I believe that since I have been ill I have become more emotional & stepping into reality has made me more confused than ever. I don't understand most things,Ive also become a fighter so I now want to fight for everything I think is wrong but sometimes that works the other way around & makes me mad.



I think becoming ill has made me realize how unfair everything is I see so many sick people and question why it has to be like that why should innocent people suffer? Why should people have their entire lives taken away from them due to illness or anything & why should anyone live with any illness I can’t do anything about all of this & it makes me so upset

I'm slowly beginning to realize that there isn't anything I can do that will help & if there is I try to do it if I am able.

I want people to stop being so heavy & filling everywhere with depressing news, or pretending they understand how I feel about the world. Reality has made me realize how much the world sucks & not only how unfair my life has been but also the lives of others around me I would prefer to live  in  a make believe world but that also got taken away from me, I still cling onto it as much as possible  but most of the time it proves unsuccessful.



My point is please whilst I’m recovering have a little empathy & compassion have a little faith in me.

I do believe that all these emotions can be used for good but I haven’t worked out how yet but as I'm probably never going to be able to work full time I might try & do some charity work in my spare days so I feel like I'm being of a use and doing some good.

Ilness,reality&love during reccovery

I constantly say I'm done with love , I love with my whole heart & soul or not at all the fact that someone can completely rip your heart apart is something I really can't seem to get my head around I've always been surrounded by love no-one has ever not loved me & that's also my problem with reality my brain tells me that its because I'm sick although I've been ill forever but I'm more ill now & its the fact that that's what in the way i know that's not it & I also know that some people won't tear my heart to shreds or smash it into a million pieces into shards of glass falling into the snow only to be found when someone cuts themselves on one.

I also know that i need to stop being so scared of opening to people, I used to be able to tell everyone anything now I try not to. I’ve also just read that first bit back & even I think I’m quite over dramatic but this is how I feel so I'm going to write it that way.

For months after realizing that no one really cared that much I was watching Good girls revolt, lot of various other things on Sexual assault whilst also reading articles on it & of course you can't escape the news anyway so there was story’s popping up on there, I know things happen but I never took notice of it. I never turned around & thought about what was wrong or payed to much attention to it or to any news but to be truthful I think I wanted people to be evil I wanted a reason to feel more angry & upset than I was

I wanted a reason to still be crying & maybe even a reason to explain to myself why I still felt so sad which is weird because I knew why I was upset I don't think anyone sow that as deeply as I did.

I don't think anyone questioned it & if I'm honest I don't think people really tried to get it which is why I'm writing this so I don't end up looking like a psychopath (pretty sure I sound like one)

I still believe that really romantic love story's do exist, like the ones you see in films or read of in books, even though I might have tried I can't be led to believe that some people aren’t as nice as they seem as I know for a fact there isn’t anything fake about me. I am genuinely as nice as I seem no games played at all, I don't know how to lie I'm a terrible liar.

I know others lie or don't tell you the whole truth until its to late & you’ve already found out from someone else but I do think that I can't be the only person like myself to be alive on earth.

Going back to the reality side of things like I already said I honestly thought that all this rejection was because I was ill, its taken me a awfully long time to get my brain to come around to thinking that’s not the case, people who haven't lived what you have or something similar are not going to understand what you have been through or what you go through daily, for me there was a element of wanting someone to understand & thinking they did so I'd be okay but it was also a mixture of loneliness I think I wanted reminding that I would will be alright & I think I wanted to be convinced that when this was over someone would be there for me.

I convinced myself that not only would I somehow be saved because even if I had problems I'd be happy (not that I wasn't happy) I lived so much in my head &
I’ve fought so hard for everything I have so having to give up a fight made me want to give up everything else. So I did pretty much give up everything else because I couldn't see any point in putting up a fight for anything, to me reality sucked I was gonna be ill forever that was that.

The worst part after realizing all this is that I'd planned out my entire life places I wanted to go, things I wanted to see & so many things I wanted to do & experience to me after realizing I was ill no one of this was possible. I was wrong it is maybe in a completely different way to the way I imagined & with a lot more planning but I do think most things are impossible.

Someone once told me to do what scares me & although

I still struggle believing in myself sometimes &when I feel down I still have problems excepting all this  but after months & months I feel like I'm getting somewhere I'm beginning to except being ill & the fact that its okay because "those who matter don't mind,& those who mind don't matter" I’ve started a chronic illness IG account & joined loads of various FB groups, I’m watching more inspiring things rather than ones I know are gonna hurt cuz as much as I loved GGR I’m so sensitive it made me really angry at the same time.

I’ve also realized that I am recovering & I need to take time out for me, whatever I think I need I should do it, whatever makes me happy I should do it, I was petrified of reality & still kind of am,

Reality right now is being ill but it I can use it for good instead of feeling sorry for myself & I will get better maybe I won't be as independent as others but as long as there’s always someone around to help I'll be okay & all these crazy plans I had whilst living my lied life I can still do them, I thought about that before & started thinking I'd end up doing things alone, I don't have to not if I once again allow myself to let people in & believe that this time it will be okay.

I’ve started to believe again that I can do anything I don't need rescuing I'm not some damsel in distress, I’m not weak, I need my friends & family around me but I cam fight this alone & prove to everyone that it is possible.

I'm not sure all my life plans are completely possible but I'm figuring out a way to do the stuff I want in a way that caters for my disability’s nothings impossible & I'm not DISabled I'm as ABLE as anyone else I just need to do things in a slightly different way.


I have a lot of chronically ill friends who raise up when I need them, people who I will always try to help if I can, I know some amazing people. By standing with them we can make a diffrence,my biggest fear now is rejection but its taught me who I want to be, the people who live lives I need to be more interested in ,people to inspire to be more like. I now know what I need & what I don't & sometimes you have to loose things to get even better things.

Whatever happens I'd like to believe that it will all be okay in the end & if its not okay its not the end.

Reccovery,school& eduacation

So as this is a blog series about everything I’ve experienced during recovery I feel my education is a important factor of that. I know I probably talk/write about it to much but it's one of the biggest parts of my life & a issue that’s effected me a lot more than you would think.


My secondary school was absolutely shockingly awful at being to cater to my needs, When we realized I needed a emergency injection they refused to do it leaving me having to have time off because they wouldn’t do it.

Which makes it quite funny that they practically threw me out because of my attendance. In they stop trying to help & I only felt a handful of them I felt were really trying to help, the rest didn't seem to care.
I think to be a teacher you need to not be taught how to teach but you need to be taught empathy, I had some amazing teachers who I won't ever forget who I felt did understand & did what teachers are supposed to do, they helped me & encouraged me.

I remember the day I left school, I showed up & was told I'd left, I hadn't my mum had wrote a letter to the head saying I would leave before the last week of term. She obviously read it wrong anyway I had a million questions fired at me, then I got taken to a classroom to do a catch-up lesson, there were only a few in the class as the rest of the year were doing a science test but luckily I got to spend my last school lesson with a few of my greatest friends.

After that I went home not exactly knowing what was going to happen, mum spoke to the school who said they could add me back to the register but the damage was done they'd done what they had done so there was no point.
I celebrated leaving school by watching Rosie play in the park no fancy anything & the saddest part is that no one had been told I had actually left. My friends weren’t told & I’ve been told by my friends that most teachers didn't actually know.

After that I started being home schooled firstly doing small projects then eventually moving onto online short courses,

My best teacher has been me, I can teach myself in a way no one else has ever seemed to try, I know what I need & I think so many teachers don't really try to people individually they just categorize you, I never liked to think I was bottom even though I was if I was still in school I still would be but "if you judge a tortoise on its a ability to climb a tree it will forever live its life believing its stupid".

I'm a lot of things but I would also like to think I'm not a complete idiot regardless of what other people think.



Whilst at my brothers Uni graduation a few years ago some man got up & made a gigantic speech on the education system, how great it was & how much you needed a good education to achieve things in life. In his speech he used the words "Education is the key to success"

As you can imagine for the girl who had literally just been thrown out of school not long before this it was very hard to stomach, I cried alot that day, I was also in pain but to basically be told I would never achieve anything was a massive kick in the teeth, especially when I was trying so hard. When doing/planning these things people don't think about who might be listening or how it could effect someone I still haven’t forgotten that, I don't think I ever will.

I’ve thought about his choice of words alot,Ive also deeply thought about how people in the education system actually treated me throughout my life, teachers aren’t trained to understand students there simply just trained to teach them so most of the time there’s a gigantic gap between teacher &pupil

I'm not saying I never had a decent teacher, I know I never mention the good ones but I had some amazing teachers teaching assistants who did
want me to succeed & do well, these are the ones I won't ever forget & I hope that other people see how great they are at their jobs just as much as I did.

You need some sort of an education but if you can't learn in the same way as others that’s okay, if your ill & can't be at school as much as everyone that’s also okay, the lack of understanding from others isn't.
Most of the times I went into school in my last few years I probably shouldn't have been there & yet when I was there I was still expected to do tests on work I wasn't there to do in the first place.

When I was to ill for school, school sent work for Hospital education to do with me, I lost count of the amount of times I cried knowing they were coming as I knew just wouldn't be able to concentrate but again it was all about the government telling me I had to learn, I wanted to learn more than anything but I couldn't all I wanted on my worst days was to be left alone with no one trying to force me to do anything that I knew I couldn't even though I so desperately wanted to.

The whole education system is messed up, all a school wants is a perfect attendance to make them look good on paper, or for you to get top marks in everything so they get the best results overall.


I never really thought about it until I started looking back but my time in school came with a lot of things teachers wouldn't let me do at the time I thought it was unfair but never really thought to much into it I was just sad about it but carried on regardless.

One time that sticks out for me was in year 6 at our end of school play, I was super excited about this & probably way to optimistic but in my mind there was no reason I couldn't do it or anything I wanted to do, I was a tad shy but I thought by doing this it would bring me out of my shell, the worst part wasn't getting a bad part the worst part was that I'd recently found a love for acting & the art of T.V & film the worst bit was basically being told that I couldn't do anything like that I had no clue why people thought I wasn’t capable.
My parents, family & close friends have never put anything past me do I never thought about being judged, left out or discriminated as a child I now know I was & quite alot by the people who should have been boosting me up.

My year 6 year was the healthiest I ever remember feeling & sometimes I wish I could go back to then & let these people know how ill I was gonna get & how you have to give people chances when you can people younger than me had better roles than me another stab in the back.

Also why make me fill out a form on what I want if you don't care about it anyway I also got yelled at for sitting by the school hall door, I’m a chronic asthmatic it was to cold outside and I had to waste over a hour a night doing nothing, I know they could have axed me all together but to do that to someone just because of illness is pretty low. Its extremely low to discriminated against anyone but to a kid who just wants to be apart of something is even worse.

Same school same casting my little sister got 1 of the main roles & I feel like that was because she not had good grades another thing I lacked but she also had a good attendance from the start of school I didn't. This will always be one of the lowest points of my life & one where I personally feel I was judged the worst & discriminated against the most in my entire life a few months I won't ever forget.


There were so many times I felt excluded from my peers because I apparently wasn’t as smart as they were even if I'm not I know I’ve been able to make friends because of it & I’ve learnt a lot from people who have struggled to learn more than,Ive been able to learn how to help them as well myself which is something I'm so grateful I’ve had the chance to do.


Grades don't define who you are they may define who some people think you are but there’s a lot more to life than having a good eduction,I know a lot of people who struggle academically but there the nicest people I’ve ever known.

I know sometimes people use there jobs or schooling to try & make out they are better than you but I think as long as you know what’s important to you & never lose sight of what you want to change about the world, what you want out of your life & are able to be a decent person. In my mind thats all that matters